GlassAngel at Home

Well this weekend I headed up to visit the best friend at her new place and ended up having to listen to her and the fiancee fight and almost break up. Sunday I came home only to end up so sick that I was out of work both monday and tuesday and really wished I had stayed home today also. I think that I will be heading home in a little while to go back to bed...at 4pm. I spent most of my day monday throwing up in such a prolonged and violent manner that it actually hurts when I breath.

I did drag my self out of bed yesterday long enough to go to the laundry and get annoyed but how women will let their little kids act. As I have pointed out before I hate the way people let their kids act at that laundry...like it is their own home for them to destroy.

Posted in: General Life on Wednesday, March 21, 2007 at 2:43 PM 0 comments    

I was reading This Fish tonight and came across ed her post about Next!ing. I loved it since there are a few men in my phone that needed to be next!ed. I followed her example and got rid of a few.

While I was reading the comments, one of her readers said this....

Never make someone a priority
who only sees you as a option!

this was added to my mirror for me to see daily and when I am feeling shitty cause the one I next!ed still isn't calling me.

Posted in: General Life, Thought For The Day on Tuesday, March 13, 2007 at 7:58 PM 0 comments    

So Thursday I headed up to my hometown as soon as I could get out of work to help my sister when she had her induction on friday. We had to be at the hospital at 5am and at 6 they started her on the pitocin. Nothing much happened till about 4pm then things progressed rapidly and at 5:05pm he was born. Baby J is really little weighing in at 7 pounds 10 oz. We were thinking he would be more like 9-10 so it was a big shock when they put him on the scale and read out that number. He and mom are doing great and went home on sunday morning.

I came home saturday evening, after stopping and picking up a load of stuff from my storage unit. Saturday I put the last chunk of money down on my bridesmaid's dress for L's wedding in July. I have to head back up next weekend to visit with L. since I didn't get to see her while I was back.

I had a few thoughts as I sat there waiting for Lil Sis to pop and I am still getting them sorted out on paper before I write about them. But one thing I will say is that a few days before I got ready to go up there I came to a conclusion.... I need to stop looking for a man. All it does is stress me out and then when I go out with one a few times and he turn out to be a loser I can't get rid of him. So I am going on a dating hiatus. And that will have to tide you over till I can get the rest of my thoughts on paper.

Posted in: General Life on at 7:02 PM 0 comments    

*** Warning much swearing in this post! I have had too much wine on a empty stomach and this is my way of not drunk dialing anyone. Please forgive my ranting ***

To The new 'Production Manager' at work: FUCK OFF! You are a asshat who doesn't know how to do the job you were hired for so get off my back. It is not my fault you do not know how to read our drawings. It is not my fault you got sent out on my huge install this week, but PLEASE don't fuck this up for me. I really don't need you walking around saying I made a mistake, when it is just you not understanding how to install something that is worth more than your own house.

OOOOOOHHHH and let me not forget to mention the DR Jekyll/Mr Hyde builder for the above mention project being installed who just called my PERSONAL cell phone at 9:50pm. You sir take the cake! After your yelling fit that no was to call you on Saturday because that is YOUR time, you call me and interrupt my personal time?! Just be glad I screened your call or you would have been getting a earful from me!

And now that I have exhausted myself ranting I am off to bed. Maybe this will help me fall asleep better tonight since lord know I didn't get much sleep last night.

Posted in: General Life on Monday, March 5, 2007 at 9:01 PM 0 comments    

So last night just after I had fallen asleep I was awoken by a very loud screeching noise. It sound to me in my newly awakened state like a screw being backed out of a very strong piece of wood. My heart racing I thought of my landlord telling me that they had screwed all the doors and windows shut in the apartment below me. After my brush with a attempted B&E in December I am a little jumpy when I hear odd noises late at night now. I did eventually go back to sleep...but it only led to some really bad dreams, that I don't remember other than to say that they were scary. So I didn't get much sleep since I kept waking up thinking someone was trying to get in.

I will be so happy when my taxes come back and I start looking for a new place.

Posted in: General Life on Monday, February 26, 2007 at 8:41 AM 0 comments    

You Are Okay With Money

You're about average with money, which means you probably don't have a lot of it. Your instincts tell you to stay out of debt and spend wisely... But you don't always listen to your instincts! With a little more effort, you could have a nice little nest egg. You just have to control your spending.

Are You Good With Money?

This is so completely me.If I could control my spending a little more I would not have any credit card debit, I would have more in savings and I would feel a lot more secure in money matters. It has been my goal this year to get myself shoveled out of the debit and put more into savings...but so far it has not happend. I know that my current need to move to a more secure apartment is going to make that even harder as I will need to pay more for rent than I do now.

Posted in: General Life on Sunday, February 25, 2007 at 9:27 AM 0 comments    

Ok so for the last week I have been a little lax in posting. The weekend was good. Friday night I stopped at the bar on the way home and had a few drinks with some of the guys from work.

Then Saturday afternoon I cleaned. Which entailed me and a scrub brush and my absolutely filthy kitchen floor. Since we had the winter weather from hell last week my floor had about 2 inches of road salt scum on it. Which I so couldn't hack for a single second longer. So 3 hours later my kitchen and bathroom floors had been scrubbed within a inch of their lives.

Sunday I did the laundry trip and since the last 2 times I have been to my normal laundry I have had problems with machines I decide that from now on I will go to the one in my hood and pay a little extra. So me and a treo stocked with 5 cd's and 5 ebooks went and had a good time till my mom called and finished up my time there and went shopping in target with me. I must have looked like I was talking to myself cause I was testing a new headset/hands feel call device so I just looked like I had headphones on.

Monday at work I came down with one of my nasty migraines and ended up cutting out for the day at 3pm and not going in at all on tuesday. Work has been a little hectic so I have been working a lot of hours so I don't feel bad taking the day off. The headache is mostly gone now...I just have some lingering tiredness and the small after the fact headache.

Posted in: General Life on Thursday, February 22, 2007 at 7:44 PM 0 comments    

CNN video story: No Children, No Marriage.

This story makes me question a few things, same as the Ipod banning story does. Who has the right to tell me that I can not marry or that my marriage is invalid just because I can not or choose not to have children. Marriage is not just about having children, and this story is saying that is the only reason someone would chose to marry. I can see through this as a right wing crack at defining marriage in a attempt to make gay/lesbian marriages not a possibility.

Really some days I really hate to say I am a republican.

Posted in: In The News on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at 2:18 PM 0 comments    

What Kind of Reader Are You? Your Result: Dedicated Reader You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Literate Good Citizen
Book Snob
Fad Reader
Non-Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You? Create Your Own Quiz

Posted in: on Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 5:39 PM 0 comments    

I know it has been a while since my last post. Life is marching on without much going on. Work is busy as normal, I have been coming home eating and then crashing most nights. This weekend I told myself I would not work at home and so far I haven't! I didn't do a ton, read a few books, did laundry at home and went tonight and did some at the laundromat. I made some food for the coming week and a ton of biscuits. So all in all my weekend has been great and restful. I have been so tired and cranky for the last couple of weeks that I needed this.

I have made the choice to go off my birth control, since it seems to not help with my mood swings and it is making my period more erratic than it already was. So that is it..I will stop taking the ones I have till I can get a appointment with a new Dr and get a different kind. Since I have sworn off the other reason I would need it I am not at all worried about going off of it. I just hope I don't go thru the same hormone roller coaster I went on when I first stared it.

Posted in: General Life on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 8:17 PM 0 comments    

New York may ban iPods while crossing street

I find this an invasion of my privacy. I have the right to use what ever I want while walking down the street as long as it doesn't harm another person. If I choose to use a device and then I also choose to not pay attention to my surroundings then it is my fault if I am harmed. I know this is a effort to save lives but those who choose to use these thing need to take some responsibility for what they do while using them!

Posted in: In The News on Wednesday, February 7, 2007 at 2:38 PM 0 comments    

Yeah that is right today was emotional breakdown day. Things both personal and professional were conspiring against me today and I had a little bit of a problem at my desk today. It required a lunch out to get a little perspective back.

The Beef and Broccoli wasn't half bad, but the time away was enough to give me a little break from the professional problems that are plaguing me this week. Once I was back in the office thought things didn't seem quite so bad as they had before the lunch break.

The personal problems, well it is going to take a few days to get to the bottom of and they are putting me on a hair trigger. I'm not quite ready to talk about them yet as I still don't have it all sorted out...but when I do you will be the first to know.As for tonight... all I want is my bed and a good book to escape into.

Posted in: General Life on Wednesday, January 31, 2007 at 7:22 PM 0 comments    

Someone sent me this today knowing that I will turn 30 in a couple of months as a reason why I shouldn't be looking forward to it in a bad way.....

This is for all you girls 30 years and over... And for those who are turning 30, and for those who are scared of moving into their 30's... AND for guys who are scared of girls over 30!!! This was a monologue by Andy
Rooney from the CBS show, 60 Minutes.

Andy Rooney said:

As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why:

A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.

If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting.

A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in whom she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a hoot what you might think about her or what she's doing.

Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved .. They know what it's like to be unappreciated.

A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women.
Women over 30 couldn't care less if you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 30. They always know.

Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her.

Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well- coiffed hot woman of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of
himself with some 22-year-old waitress.

Ladies, I apologize.

For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free". Here's an update for you.

Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage, why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire Pig, just to get a little sausage.

Posted in: Thought For The Day on Tuesday, January 30, 2007 at 12:16 PM 0 comments    

Well it has been a few days since my last post so I thought I would catch you up on the latest and greatest in my life....which is nothing. The weekend was short and uneventful as long as you don't call going to the laundry eventful. At least this week it was not filled with screaming kids, in fact there were no kids there at all. I did a little shopping, cooked a little, watched a few movies and read alot. All in all my kind of weekend.

The Healthy Lifestyle thing is going good. I got in more that my allotted time for cardio and made 2 of my 3 strength training sessions. Eating I did well, I stayed in my calorie range all week and am down by 3.5 lbs so far.

Posted in: General Life on Monday, January 29, 2007 at 12:52 PM 0 comments    

I went to Target after work today for a new work out dvd and as I rode the escalator to the 2nd floor (yes I have a 2 story Target right around the corner from my house) I heard this thump. I looked down at the bottom and it was this little girl (about 5), she had literally jumped on to the escalator. As I watch her giggling she jumps from one step to the next as it slowly works it's way up. Soon she is standing on the step next to me, she looks up at me still giggling, then looks back at her mom who is still on a step near the bottom. As we reach the top she sprints off and runs back to the down escalator and jumps back on. Her sheer enthusiasm for riding the escalator caused so many people to smile as they watched her joy in such a simple thing. I wonder when the last time I was so engrossed in something like that.

As for the workout dvd I ended up with the Yoga Booty Ballet - Goddess Booty & Yoga Core set. I did the goddess booty one tonight and I have to say that it was a little challanging for me in my current inflexable state. Hopefully I will be more flexable soon by using this set. In other "Healty Life Plan" news so far so good this week. I have done all my work outs so far. I have eaten well and only been a little over my calorie range for the first 2 days of my week.

Work is stressing me out this week...The Boss has been in a bad mood for like 3 weeks and this week it has been bad. I will start putting a new study into production this week, so I am stressing about that.

Posted in: General Life on Tuesday, January 23, 2007 at 8:11 PM 0 comments    

I know this seems like such a lame thing to be so excited about. I have been with out a outside driver's side door handle for going on 3yrs and this winter the inside one on that door bit the dust. So back at the beginning of December I ordered them off ebay. After some shit by the USPS (they lost the package at my local unit)I finally was able to get a set today and then one of the guys at work installed them for me. It was so cool to get into my car this evening with out having to crawl through and open the window so I could get the door open. No longer is my car ghetto with the plastic zip ties to pull to open the door. You can not believe how happy this has made me!

In other news....

Today was the official restart of the healthy eating plan. I did ok today for the first day with eating...I am only over my calories for the day by about 30. Yesterday I did a 30 min cardio work out and today I went on a 30 min walk with R. on our lunch break. As soon as I am off the puter here I will be doing my strength training stuff and another 30 min of cardio to get in my calories burned for the day. I didn't sleep well last night so I think I will be going to bed once I am done with them so I can try and be up to do my work out in the morning so I don't have to do it tomorrow evening. Also I need to find a scarf for tomorrows lunch time walk.

Posted in: General Life on Monday, January 22, 2007 at 7:24 PM 0 comments    

Today was the normal sunday...laundry, food and cleaning. I waited till later in the day to do laundry since the bear's had a playoffs game today in the hopes of having fewer people. For the most part that was true...except for the lady with 4 running, screaming kids.

I spent most of the morning cleaning my LR carpet... when I was sick my lovely cat decided that one corner was her cat box. So I am on the 3rd try to get the smell out of my carpet. I think I will be needing to clean it atleast one more time before I will be happy with it.

After the laundry I went and picked up groceries. I was good and only bought good for me stuff. I came home and cooked up a whole bunch of meat to eat for the rest of the week so I can eat better for supper. After my cooking spree I did my 15 min walking work out so I did do something good today.

Posted in: General Life on Sunday, January 21, 2007 at 9:19 PM 0 comments    

This week I had a "ahha" moment and I have been thinking about it ever since. I have been reading the book Keeping the Love You Find by Harville Hendrix and this book has me thinking about a lot of things.

My moment...well it had to do with the fact that I realised that I don't really know how to be by myself and be happy with that. I can take that one step further even and say I don't really know who I am without a connection to someone else...such as D's daughter, J's sister, lil J's aunt, L's best friend or so-in-so's girlfriend. I think this could be termed a mid life crisis if not for the fact that... 1. I'm not at the middle of my life yet. 2. I don't think I really ever left the "nest" so to speak to find out who I was.

So this is a 2 part problem; who am I as a individual and learning how to be happy by myself.

I'm not saying I have never been by myself (I lived by myself for 2 years before I moved to Chicago) just that even when I was not in a relationship I had family and friends to take up any loneliness slack. If I needed someone to talk to, someone to go out with I had built in "people" to take care of that. Now my people are 200 miles away and I need to amuse myself.

And when I was not in a relationship I was always looking for the next one. The one that would be the lasting one. The book has some exercises you do that help you pinpoint patterns you have in relationships that are causing you to not have good relationships. I have to say I'm not liking what I am seeing as I do some of these. I look at the trends and say why are you doing this to yourself time and time again? Why are you choosing to make yourself unhappy/scared/hurt? Why are you choosing to be with men who are not what you want, or not going to treat you right?

All of these are questions that need to be answered, taken care of. So my goal for the next 30 days is to try and work on finding out a little more about me as a person and not as part of the collective. And to continue reading this book to see where it leads.

Posted in: General Life on Friday, January 19, 2007 at 7:30 PM 0 comments    

OK so I was reading blogs just now and ran acrossed Charming's idea for a man detox. I read this and it hit me over the head that I need to do this also.

Posted in: General Life on Tuesday, January 16, 2007 at 8:47 PM 0 comments    

Well winter has arrived in Chicago! Yesterday was a day of snow, sleet and rain. We didn't get the big forcasted storm last night but did get a little (about a 1") bit of snow. Today it was sunny but cold. Walking out of work tonight in the dark was not fun and it took forever to get the car warmed up. Right now the weather bug on my computer desk top says it is a lovely 19 with our low tonight about 11.

Since it is so cold out I had to leave the heat turned up a little last night and it seems like I will be doing the same tonight. With the 2 floors below me unoccupied and unheated I am losing a lot of heat and also not getting some heat I should be getting from those 2 floors. So far this winter I haven't really missed the heating blanket that I used to have, but last night I did! I think that I will be stopping to buy one on my way home from work tomorrow night if they say it will be cold like this for a few more days.

Posted in: General Life on at 8:08 PM 0 comments